se-keluarga ber-dondon.

dah tiga tahun kami sekeluarga pakai sedondon.
yang tak best sebab style sama je.
tak kain yang kosong, mesti baju yang kosong.
baju melayu memang sah-sah semua kosong. 
nak buat sepasang bunga-bunga memang tak dapat.
nanti orang cakap macam karpet berjalan pulak.

ex(es). make you or break you.

selamba je ex-bestfriend ramah-ramah dengan ex-boyfriend.
tanya-tanya pasal status dalam hati ada taman ex-boyfriend. 
mereka ni berkawan macam tiada apa-apa.
aku, berkawan macam ada apa-apa.

******

ex-boyfriend : nak pergi rumah kawan ke?
                     ingat kalau ada kat rumah nak ajak buka sekali.
tupaimerah : eh! ape pasal pulak aku nak kena buka dengan kau?
ex-boyfriend : [speechless]

******  

ex-boyfriend : ingat rindu kat aku.
tupaimerah : rindu kau buat ape?
ex-boyfriend : [speechless]

****** 

ex-boyfriend : bila nak ada driver?

tupaimerah : alah. tahun lepas ade boyfriend pun balik drive sendiri jugak.

                   serupa tak payah ada boyfriend kalau macam tu.
ex-boyfriend : [speechless]

******

'sarcasm, in a way, is blessing in disguise' - tupaimerah

harga sebuah teknologi

tidak manghantar kad raya.
juga tidak menerima kad raya.

amat menyedihkan bagi old school-er macam saya....
tsktsktsk 

hari ni mood nak tulis panjang-panjang sepuas hati!

sentap sekejap saya semalam.
terus buat list [list?] lelaki-lelaki yang
dimimpikan dan diimpikan,
sengaja atau tidak sengaja.


F**** M**** - 17 hopeless years
G**** - 1 scandalous wasted year 
A***** * - 1 1/2 another hopeless years  
F***** - 2 months too deep too soon [and the only real boyfriend.omg]
J** ***** - 1 ridiculous month [& counting]
tom cruise - 20 devoted years [& counting]
ethan hawke - 12 smitten years [& counting]
james franco eh sudah! sudah! 

oke, my point is, my crush would only last few hours,
or if hes lucky enough, count it to few weeks.
other than that, it took me my whole life to get over
a so-called crush. or so i thought.

look at FM.
[i supposed im so over him by now]
what was i thinking?
17 years???
[oke, mug tu belum pecah-pecah lagi. tsktsktsk]
and he is now, officially my 'forever crush'
[another term i made up for him [yikes!]]

- not going to talk about the others -

[oke, cerita ni sampai sini je]

ni pulak cerita lain.
two weeks ago, i fought hard with pakcik about 2010's eidulfitr.
mati-mati i told him [to infinite confidence] that 2010's eidulfitr was on september 20th.
i was saying something like

'betul~ saya ingat lagi, malam raya tu kitorang makan KFC celebrate birthday'

THAT WAS ACTUALLY TWO YEARS AGO!

now you ask 'what happened?'
well, apparently, F happened.
my last Ramadhan was full with either -

good night, or
selamat berbuka, or
dah balik terawih ke?, or
busy?, or
puasa tak? smses,

until he dumped me for my bestfriend, on my birthday.
aaah, now that explains the skip.

i swear it hurts me so much i cried my heart out for weeks!
and six months later, i was still catching up with life.
ramadhan is here & september is approaching. 
im getting older & wiser & prettier [eh!] but the memory remains.
and hes still here, still a friend.

remember this?
thank the Almighty it didnt happen.

and today,
i dont want to remember him as someone who used to hurt me, 
i want to remember him as someone who used to make me happy.

to certain extent, that belief really helps :)

[oke, cerita ni sampai sini je]

now i wonder, what is love, and what is crush.
[oke, crush is only 4 months blablabla]
and why women are so soft-hearted...
[ni nak cabar fitrah kejadian Tuhan ke ape ni buat statement macam ni???]
but someones right about this,
'what doesnt kill you, really makes you stronger'

and i was once told by a friend [particularly referring to FM]

'maybe you dont love him, maybe you just love the idea of having him around'

and i think shes right about that. 
i sometimes call him my 'rebound guy'
and that, i supposed, explains the hopeless years!

phew~ what a conclusion! hurrah!!!




p/s.
eh panjangnye entry ni?

hari ini gua sampai pagi-pagi
terus gua bukak mp3 pc gua.
pasang lagu melayu klasik.
mahu tengok ada tak yang berani
pasang lagu raya kat pc sebelah.


hahaha

ergh.

budak-budak ni dah merengek-rengek
minta dipasang lagu raya.
tak dapat kat pc gua,
dia pasang kt pc sebelah.
panas betul gua.
lepas tu, selamba je datang dekat-dekat gua and cakap -

'dengar kak. lagu 'balik kampung' ni!'

aku hempok jugak kang budak ni....

WOI KAMPUNG KAU KAT SENTUL JE LAA!!!!

rupa-rupanya...

...dah banyak entry yang dok terperam kat draft ni.

entry yang suatu ketika dulu tak releven dah jadi releven. 

bila dah jadi releven, jadi tak releven pula nak publish. 

ish~ ish~ ish~

salam 12 Ramadhan. 

kamu dah mula pasang lagu raya kah? 

saya belum.

maafkan saya :(

semalam, masa saya nak tido, 
saya nak delete mesej-mesej pakcik tu.

tiba-tiba saya tersentap.
Ya Allah apa aku dah buat?
baru saya faham niat pakcik tu.

dia kata nanti kalau ada orang yang salah guna 
no telefon saya dan buat macam-macam, 
bole tak lena tidur SAYA.

MashaAllah, saya minta maaf banyak-banyak pakcik
sebab saya buruk sangka.
semoga Allah ampunkan kesalahan saya.
semoga kawan-kawan semua maafkan saya.


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errrrr, boleh jadi, masa nak tido tu, pakcik tu cakap kat bini
dia ade budak langgar keta diorg then tgalkan no tepon
utk apa-apa hal. kemudian bini dia cakap -

'apela budak tu, no tepon tgal merata-rata. kalau 
dapat kt ntah sape-sape kang naya? abang mesej la dia 
bgtau lain kali jgn buat mcm tu lg...' 

then pakcik tu pun mesej saya. kan?

astagfirullahala'zim......

jam 10.57 malam

tring!

'lain kali bila awk langgaar atau gesel kereta org

tak payah lah awk tinggal kan pesanan atau no

hp awk. kebaikan yg nk awk tunjuk kan nnti

disalah guna olih org lain...saya harap awk fhm

apa yg saya maksut kan...tksh.'

taptaptap

'saya rasa bsalah sbb gesel tu ada kesan. kalau

xde kesan mgkn saya takkan tinggalkn no telefon.

terima kasih sbb xminta ganti rugi..'

tring!

'itu btl awk rasa brslh...tpi bila no hp awk org

lain slh guna..nnti nak tdr mlm pun

tak lena dibuat nya. tak apa sikit

saja lagi pun saya nak buat cat baru so kira ok la tu...

lain kali hati2 k.'

taptaptap

'ok. trima kasih.'

tring!

'OK. SELAMAT BERPUASA'

ai pakcik?

ingatkan dh setel dh ptg td??? 

p/s.

saya burok sangka ke, 

saya lurus bendul?

ramadhan kareem!

magik yang amat!
dah boleh dengar best 104 dah!
yay!!!!

oh ye.
salam ramadhan kawan-kawan :)